Living with Anxiety

This is a disorder I have been recently diagnosed with. One day I had a panic attack, not sure what was going on I assumed I was having a heart attack May sound ridiculous but I didn’t call for help as I was too scared to do anything. To my surprise the attack slowly eased after 5 hours of panicing. Since that day all was fine till it almost happend again, fearing for my life again I tried to stay calm. For 9 days I paniced day after day over bizarre fears (when I look back but at the time was so real) with syptoms: no appetite, severe stomach pains, trouble sleeping. It consumed my thoughts and I created unrealistic thoughts and assumed I had some kind of serious disease. After seeing my doctor, I realized that it was only Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and a simple medication took care of everything.
Being someone skeptical on medicine and addiction to it, I tried to break down Anxiety Disorder to find out why. After many weeks of thinking, it’s all based on fear. Controllable and uncontrollable fear that begins panics. I don’t need medicine anymore since I know what fears trigger my anxiety. The only true way to stop it is to become fear free and recognize those fears and break them or deal with them in another way. The idea that it feels so real, that your going to have a heart attack and the doctor saying there is nothing wrong is hard to beleive. I even thought medicine would make things worse, but I learned that just by a simple pill everything was fine. That showed I was physically okay and didn’t NEED medicine to cope with anxiety. It’s all a big loop, where you try to find an answer out when that’s the actual problem. It’s very simple but feels so real when syptoms occur. Through alot of thinking and training I hope one day I will be completely anxiety free!