Living with Obssesive-Compulsive Disorder

i think i have had ocd since i was little. i remember i would never stay the night away from home because i was convinced that if i did my parents would die while i was there. i always slept with a flash light and threw a tantrum before bed because i was sure there was going to be a fire, tornado, flood, or some kind of natural disaster that would kill them but not me (if i didnt follow my childish bedtime routine…) now that i am older, it has gotten much worse. i constantly feel like if i dont go see my friends all the time, they will die somehow. if i go to throw something in the garbage, and it falls on the floor instead, i will pick it up and put it in the garbage because if i dont, i will get into a car accident for sure. i work at a pizzeria, if i dont have every single shelf available full of pizza boxes, i just cant handle it. sometimes i stay late just to fold boxes, or spend the majority of the time im there on pizza boxes. thats not the only thing i have been having obsessions about at work and my boss doesnt mind, but i do. I have finally got enough courage to see a doctor about it. i think i also have anxiety problems im not sure if its just part of the ocd my dr. is sending me to a psychologist now my only problem is if they prescribe me meds, i wont take them. i cant take pills because what if it got mixed with some other kind of drug and it kills or seriously injures my insides??? ahhh will this ever end.