Living with Obssesive-Compulsive Disorder

It all started 2 years ago, when I started worrying about what to say in front of my friends teachers and parents. I would formulate plans in my head and repeat them over and over again for hours on end, feeling extreme pain anxiety and depression when I didn’t. And when I was done thinking of one thing it was on to the next. The things I began obssesing over began to become more and more ridiculous to the point where I was wondering why 23×4= 92 for an entire hour even though I perfectly well know why. Now I have been obsessing over how I should act in front of a new student for over 2 days, and last night I rolled on the floor for 2 hours not being able to get to sleep without obssesing. I don’t know if there’s any hope of this going away and just the thought that I might live with this for the rest of my life is scary. I have taken lexapro and other anti depression/anxiety medicines but it does not help me. I’ve been telling my parents I feel better after the medicine just because I don’t want them to worry about me but I can’t take it anymore and am going to tell them about it soon. This may not be a happy story but it is what I am experiencing and hopefully I will overcome it.