Living with Panic Disorder

I don’t know what i have but i know its something with anxiety . i freak out out of nowhere i can only be with someone i trust. i feel very distant from myself …detached from myself….and i have a fear of dying and if it gets really bad i try to sleep because its so horrible. i don’t know what the hell this is so if someone can tell me what they think it might be let me know its really scary and not fun i used to not be like this i think its mental and i cant even explain it…and now im scared to even get help because i heard its takes lots of patience and time for doctors to see whats wrong with you and that not everyone gets the right treatment…..and it might not work.

my aunt also had it and she went to therapist and took sessions or some thing like that n shes fine now. maybe it runs in the family but i do know i have been scared n anxious n very cautious and have had these problems a year or so after i smoked some marijuana and i freaked out so much that i had to go the hospital. so i guess in my mind i had a life threating experience and thats why ever since than i have had panic disorder i think its panic disorder because i l ook up the symptoms of panic disorder and i have a few i dont have alot of it. i only have like 5 of the symptoms or one..i dont know what it is ..i know this doesnt make sense but if someone can right back if they have any idea of what i should do that would be nice thanks and i hope this helped someone else.