Hello,
My name is Bill. I recently found that I have PTSD I was severely dehydrated in the military (5 days no water conducting heavy movements in the Korean Mountains). Its funny how your veins can collapse, blindness sets in, you are unable to speak, having seizures and someone is pulling on you arm trying to find a vien. It felt as though my arm would snap off at any moment. This all going on as I am half dead listening to the division commander giving me his pep talk (still dont have a clue what he looks like or what he said). It seems that things never went back to normal.

I have huge problems with wanting to be in control of everything. What’s funny is that I am at the other end of the spectrum. The strange thing I am finding is that I was so blind to a such a drastic change to my well being. Also, I have trouble controlling my emotions. It seems the only emotion that I experience is anger. Oh, and I cant forget the anxiety I had no support from family or co-workers during or after the trauma. In fact, some in my unit blamed me for others getting into trouble for allowing me to go without water. I remember the leutenant calling down for water and the leutenant on the other end refused stating it was not in his orders to resupply us. I have tried a variety of ssri’s and other medications with little luck. Other problems that stem from my PTST are compulsions. I have a spending problem, a drinking problem, and over eat to fill the void that I am experiencing. This reminds me of the carnival game with the gulfers that pop out of the holes. You hit one and another one pops up. Meaning…as I try to tackle one problem another worsens. It amazes me that 5 days of my life can hinder 8 years of my existence. Anyways, you keep trying. The more I learn about PTSD the more aware I become. Good luck! I know I need it.